Journal entries of Spirit-To-Sprint Communication
September 14-25
Post 1-
I have been praying a lot, asking Heavenly Father what he thinks of me and who I am. I feel happier knowing he loves me and it is helping me to love myself. The struggle with my depression is unending but I have faith. I realize the big part of my life is the Gospel.
Post 2-
I have learned that the Holy Ghost communicates with me by other people. For example today my best friend, Kjirsten, having a feeling that I was having a really bad week wrote me a short note. It helped to not only brighten up my day but my week. In that letter the advice to read scriptures stuck out to me, so I opened up my Book of Mormon and flipped to some random page. Sure enough the verse that I needed was there.
“But that ye have patience, and bear with those afflictions, with a firm hope that ye shall one day rest from all your afflictions. “- Alma 34:41
September 36- October 2
Post 1-
This week in my Book of Mormon class the spirit spoke out to me a lot. Which is what I needed at the time. We have been studying 1 Nephi 20-22. It talks about how the Lord reveals purposes to Israel, how he shows light unto the Gentiles, Israel is scattered upon the earth, and the gentiles will nourish Israel with the gospel in the last days. To me that struck hard and got me thinking about how God reveals things to me and how he has always been there in different ways. As a child I would often pray while my mother hunched over me prayed as well, it was an every night thing as I was getting ready to go to sleep. Even now as an adult I kneel down to pray and to me when I pray Heavenly Father gives me light unto my soul so I can go out and be an example to others.
“And he said: It is a light thing that thou shouldst be my servant to raise up the tribes of Jacob, and to restore the preserved of Israel. I will also give thee for a light to the Gentiles, that thou mayest be my salvation unto the ends of the earth.” 1 Nephi 21:6
Post 2-
Heavenly Father is teaching me a little bit of how he sees me and what he is needing of me in my time and who I should be right now. I am trying to work on myself to be a better person for Him. It isn’t always the easiest but I know since He is there for me and I have came unto Him through Christ which makes anything possible.
“What manner of men ought ye to be? Verily I say unto you, even as I am”- 3 Nephi 27:27
October 3-9
Post 1-
I am not going to lie I feel a little rocky right now. Between my blood disease and my past I am wondering why I get hit with so many trials. Sometimes I feel like that slack isn’t being cut and I never get a break. All I got to say is, I am trying. Frequent prayers.
“And again, be patient in tribulation until I come; and, behold, I come quickly, and my reward is with me, and they who have sought me early shall find rest to their souls. Even so. Amen.” - D&C 54:10
Post 2-
Praying to Heavenly Father has given me comfort that I have needed from my doubts. I know He loves me, I just need to have more faith in Him.
“Yea, blessed are they whose feet stand upon the land of Zion, who have obeyed my gospel; for they shall receive for their reward the good things of the earth, and it shall bring forth in its strength.” - D&C 59:3
October 10-16
Post 1-
Well, so much for that. I am sick but I know He is still there. I just got to keep moving on.
Spiritual Thought- He, the Holy One, brings peace when there is darkness.
Post 2-
I know now that He is carrying me to help me to get over this. Although I feel tired and without strength I know he is not going to let me crumble.
“He only is my rock and my salvation: he is my defence; I shall not be moved.” - Psalm 62:6
October 17-23
Post 1-
My faith feels a bit stronger this week. I prayed and I know I have to go to the temple this week on Saturday. I feel now that I am able to listen to the spirit better it makes me a little stronger. We have temples for a reason and I need to go and help myself have a clear mind for the gospel and to help Heavenly Father in ways I can.
“Pray always, that ye may not faint, until I come. Behold, and lo, I will come quickly, and receive you unto myself. Amen.” - D&C 88:126
Post 2-
Going to the temple today is exactly what I needed. I also learned that I need to let love in more and to try and love others better. An no offence, the rest is too personal for me to want to type out on here but I know that they will strengthen my relationship with Him.
“Behold, God is mine helper: the Lord is with them that uphold my soul.” Psalm 54:4
October 24-31
Through out the fight of depression He has shown Himself to me countless of times. If it was not for Him then I would not make it through. He is so amazing and so good to me. Through this realization I feel my testimony strengthening.
Spiritual Thought- He is all I need. He’s everything, everything I need.
October 31- November 6
No matter how hard life may get He will always be there. I want whoever reads this to know that they are loved so very much. So much more than we can comprehend. He has so much love for me and everyone else. Why is it taking until now for me to feel the power of his love? That I will keep asking myself for now.
“Great is our Lord, and of great power: his understanding is infinite.”- Psalm 147:5
November 7-13
I pray unto Him that my family will be protected. And indeed they are. Knowing that my twin sister has been suffering with her seizures I prayed that she will be protected and to feel better than she has been and He answered my prayers. Sometimes I underestimate Him but I learn to have faith in Him and He always shows to me just how amazing He is.
Spiritual Thought (I was singing this earlier today)-
Jesus loves me! He will stay,
Close beside me all the way;
He's prepared a home for me,
And some day His face I'll see.
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
Yes, Jesus loves me!
The Bible tells me so.
November 14-20
So, I know I am getting tired and my body feels weak but I know that I have to go trough trials. Granted I may get angry at God a time or two, but then I realize I signed up for this. I choose this life and He had faith in me that I will be ok and eventually come unto Him and accept the Gospel and still continue to go through hard and rough patches in my life. His plan is the perfect plan I just need to learn to see that.
Spiritual Message (something I feel God telling me everyday)- Hold on to me tight, I promise you it will be alright. Just never let go.
November 21-27
I feel stronger here with my family and He knows that. He gave us family for a reason. They help us through our Earthly journey or at least they are supposed to. Sometimes you have to be the one. My family may not have the fulness of the Gospel, but they still help me and I know that I can be an example to them. My mom maybe inactive but she does know the Gospel is true and that gives me hope to know that the seed is slowly growing. God is good and is love.
“Praise ye the Lord: for it is good to sing praises unto our God; for it is pleasant; and praise is comely.” -Psalm 147:1
November 28-Dec 4
Being back in Rexburg has been hard for me. I really do miss my family and the depression is getting worse to other issues I wont discuss but I know that He knows that. I still feel alone but I know I am not. Kind of like that poem called “Footprints”. I know that He is carrying me through troubles and heart ache and pain.
Spiritual Thought- “Footprints”
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord,
“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?”
The Lord replied,
“The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
is when I carried you.”
December 5-10
If it weren’t for Heavenly Father “yelling” at me this week, I would have probably given up. He spoke to me through my best friend and I know that. She helped me so much to get through this week. She truly is in tune with the spirit and I know she loves the Gospel. I feel stronger and better now. I keep telling myself to think happy thoughts and I do. I know I have reached my goal, I wanted to grow stronger in the gospel and know that He really does love me and I know that he does.
“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”
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